Um. Can I lodge a formal complaint here against whoever controls the heat in Brewer Hall? We'd really like not to be living in Hell, and sweating when you're wearing panties and a thin tank to bed and not having insane nightmares qualifies as being too damn hot. Faircloth, too. I don't want my friends burning up into little charred friend bits, kthxbai. 

Other than the insane heating system, which apparently thinks we live in the Arctic, I've been all right. I have a paper due tomorrow for English that I need to work on today, but its only 3 pages, so I'm not too worried. Double spaced, too. Once you've done NaNo, that seems like an insanely small amount to write. 

Speaking of NaNo: 16k baby! I'm so behind but I'll catch up this weekend. I went to the mall last night, went to Light Years, and bought Eric a part of his Christmas present (the Ebola virus stuffed microbe, he's wanted one ever since I got Kirby), and bought Lindsey a belated birthday present (a really pretty pair of green earrings, which she loved). 

And: speaking of Eric, things have revved up considerably in that department the past few days. Its kind of insane. He sent me a letter on Friday saying how in love with me he was, I'll post it here:

"It's been only minutes since we last spoke, and I already miss your voice. How did this happen? It seems every time I feel like I can't fall any more deeply in love with you, I do. I don't know which aspect of you it is this time that's pulling me closer to you, but it's certainly doing it. You're beautiful, and when it seems like I've almost gotten used to this fact the light will frame you just-so, and I'm the lovestruck teenager in The Rattlesnake again, heart pounding and pulse racing as strongly now as then, but with anticipation rather than the nervousness it was before. And there's the way we can just lay together, without either of us even doing anything, and feel that everything is right in the world.

            You're absolutely amazing as a person, as well. You have far more of the virtues I look for in others than most do. You've been exceedingly kind and understanding, and we've borne through things that would've broken up most couples, and come out of most of them ok. With you, I feel complete, like a jigsaw puzzle that just had the final piece added. Of course, you go ahead and make me feel things I s existed, let alone saw myself experiencing. As hard as it was to imagine life with someone else in it, it's now just as impossible to imagine the world without you. It doesn't make sense. 

I could go on forever about all the things I want to do when I finally get to see you again, how you make me feel, and how amazing you are, but eventually I'd run out of either space or time, both of which would be better spent actually with you.
I love you more than I thought possible, Rachel." 

The actual letter is much longer, but I figured I'd save you all the awkwardness that comes with reading smut meant for someone else. And he's gotten much more vocal in the past few days about how he feels about me. We have a friend named Rachel, she's around 15, she's like me at that age. She's very cuddly and touchy-feely with everyone, and I'm not threatened or bothered that she cuddles with Eric whenever she's over. She's like his little sister, so I'm not too territorial. Well, the other day when she was over, she was being really cuddly with him, and he actually asked her to stop, because it seemed like it was disrespectful to me. I respect him a lot for doing that. 

We're pretty much engaged...we were talking on AIM on Sunday night and had the following conversation:

novawarrior264 (12:47:06 AM): I'm as loyal to the people in my adopted family as most are to their own blood.

novawarrior264 (12:47:22 AM): This includes you. How this works, I don't know.

JediRa00 (12:47:37 AM): I don't want to know.

novawarrior264 (12:47:55 AM): Megan just said By marriage.

JediRa00 (12:48:02 AM): XD. Tell her to wait about ten years.

novawarrior264 (12:48:13 AM): I told her she was getting ahead of herself.

novawarrior264 (12:48:33 AM): But I would be fully prepared to never love another woman for the rest of my life, since I have you.

JediRa00 (12:48:51 AM): It pretty much amounts to the same thing.

JediRa00 (12:48:58 AM): Excuse me.

novawarrior264 (12:49:06 AM): ?

JediRa00 (12:49:37 AM): *returns from having placed her entire body in her closet and jumped around like an idiot, much to the WTF-ness of her roommate*

novawarrior264 (12:50:13 AM): And that's as good, for us, as being engaged.

novawarrior264 (12:50:24 AM): Just without the pressure.

JediRa00 (12:51:02 AM): Wow. I just screamed and scared the shit out of my roommate.

novawarrior264 (12:51:18 AM): XD. Did you tell her what over?

JediRa00 (12:51:24 AM): Nah.

novawarrior264 (12:51:38 AM): I love you.

novawarrior264 (12:51:53 AM): And I think, in these last few days, your getting an idea of just how much that means.

JediRa00 (12:52:01 AM): I am.

JediRa00 (12:52:05 AM): I love you too.

novawarrior264 (12:52:14 AM): I love you too.

novawarrior264 (12:52:32 AM): And, on top of a wonderful thing, your love of me is a responsibility.

novawarrior264 (12:52:58 AM): A trust that I can't betray, because if I did I would be undeserving of it.

JediRa00 (12:53:45 AM): We hold each other accountable in the worst and best wayrs.

novawarrior264 (12:55:41 AM): We hold each others souls in the palms of our hands.

novawarrior264 (12:55:57 AM): It would be a trivial matter for each one of us to inflict upon the other a blow from which they would never recover.

novawarrior264 (12:56:27 AM): And we never would.

JediRa00 (12:56:30 AM): We do dance a delicate dance, it's true. But you're right.

JediRa00 (12:57:33 AM): We know how much is at stake. Therefore, we're exceedingly careful.

novawarrior264 (12:58:12 AM): We are.

novawarrior264 (12:58:23 AM): Nothing is worse than for us to hurt each other.

JediRa00 (12:58:37 AM): That's why I'm so wary of Christmas. I'm terrified that I'll do something to hurt you.

novawarrior264 (12:59:35 AM): Not if you're not trying to.

novawarrior264 (12:59:42 AM): Unless you completely neglect me. That would sting.

JediRa00 (12:59:54 AM): God, I hope I won't.

JediRa00 (1:00:34 AM): I just want to get through Thanksgiving break first.

novawarrior264 (1:00:57 AM): If you can't change it, don't worry about it.

JediRa00 (1:01:13 AM): I love you so much, Eric.

novawarrior264 (1:01:24 AM): I love you too.

novawarrior264 (1:01:48 AM): If I had to, I'd plunge the world into darkness so you could walk in light.

JediRa00 (1:02:18 AM): Silly man. You light the ground I walk on by your very existence, don't you know that?

novawarrior264 (1:02:38 AM): Now I do, and you do the same for me

novawarrior264 (1:03:02 AM): *melts* God I love you...

JediRa00 (1:03:32 AM): I love you too.

JediRa00 (1:04:23 AM): My head feels like I've doused it in champagne.

JediRa00 (1:05:20 AM): That's what I thought when I talked to you again for the first time after the break. That talking to you felt like I was drunk on champagne.

novawarrior264 (1:07:13 AM): It does, doesn't it.

JediRa00 (1:07:21 AM): Indeed.

JediRa00 (1:08:46 AM): "I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)"--my favorite lines.

novawarrior264 (1:09:09 AM): Sums us up perfectly.

JediRa00 (1:09:38 AM): That entire poem is pure us.

novawarrior264 (1:09:49 AM): Indeed.

novawarrior264 (1:10:08 AM): Even when I thought I was going to die, my only thought was of you.

novawarrior264 (1:10:50 AM): How, if I could live a full length life, but without you, this would be better.

JediRa00 (1:11:10 AM): I know. It wasn't frantic, either. It wasn't "how will he survive". It was simply, "Damn, that was amazing."

novawarrior264 (1:11:25 AM): What was

novawarrior264 (1:11:27 AM): ?

JediRa00 (1:12:04 AM): there have been times when I've thought I was about to die, or at least be very, very injured. and those were my thoughts of you.

novawarrior264 (1:12:39 AM): We think of each other in our direst moments.

novawarrior264 (1:12:53 AM): THIS is what those three words were meant to convey.\

JediRa00 (1:13:22 AM): Indeed.

JediRa00 (1:13:48 AM): I just thought, "this whole conversation has got to be a dream."

novawarrior264 (1:14:47 AM): Not a dream, just one of realities saving graces.

JediRa00 (1:14:56 AM): As is your love for me, my dear.

novawarrior264 (1:15:24 AM): There aren't words for what we have...

JediRa00 (1:16:21 AM): No. Our eyes and breaths say it far better, and more eloquently.

novawarrior264 (1:17:07 AM): They do.

JediRa00 (1:17:35 AM): The only way this night could be more perfect is if we fell asleep together.

novawarrior264 (1:17:54 AM): Indeed.

JediRa00 (1:18:13 AM): Which reminds me, I'm still dressed. Hold on.

novawarrior264 (1:19:25 AM): I'm actually going soon.

novawarrior264 (1:19:31 AM): I do need to eat and go to bed.

novawarrior264 (1:20:54 AM): I love you.

JediRa00 (1:22:34 AM): Please stay for another minute?

novawarrior264 (1:23:05 AM): Alright.

JediRa00 (1:23:25 AM): I love you. You're wonderful and amazing and brilliant and you're going to change the world, you and me both.

novawarrior264 (1:25:40 AM): And here I am, in a puddle.

novawarrior264 (1:25:44 AM): In a happy little love puddle.

JediRa00 (1:26:00 AM): Oh, and you're gorgeous and I want to have lots of hot sex with you, as well.

novawarrior264 (1:26:59 AM): As are you. You're amazing and beautiful and I want to have all kinds of crazy sex with you.

JediRa00 (1:27:39 AM): Let's do it. Let's spend the rest of our lives being productive and comfy and sexed up and in love. This sounds good to me.

novawarrior264 (1:27:53 AM): Sounds good to me.

JediRa00 (1:28:18 AM): Yep. And love, I really need to go to bed. Because I have to register my ass for classes in --eep!-- 7 hours.

novawarrior264 (1:28:32 AM): Eeesh. Goodnight, then.

JediRa00 (1:28:38 AM): Goodnight, my love. Sweet dreams.

novawarrior264 (1:29:20 AM): Goodnight, my dearest one. May life bring you nothing but new wonders and joys with each day.

JediRa00 (1:29:33 AM): You sounded like a freaking fortune cookie there.

novawarrior264 (1:29:49 AM): I stole it from somewhere.

JediRa00 (1:29:52 AM): A fortune cookie, obviously.

novawarrior264 (1:30:05 AM): Clearly.

JediRa00 (1:30:05 AM): XD

novawarrior264 (1:30:15 AM): Everything I know I learned from fortune cookies.

JediRa00 (1:30:16 AM): Oh really?

novawarrior264 (1:30:23 AM): Yep.

novawarrior264 (1:30:32 AM): Even advanced computational theory

JediRa00 (1:30:29 AM): *arches eyebrows* Everything, you say?

JediRa00 (1:31:14 AM): What fortune cookies have you been getting that....you know what, never mind. Obviously you get super-steamy fortune cookie messages from the Chinese hooker you buy your Chinese food from.

novawarrior264 (1:32:25 AM): XD

JediRa00 (1:32:39 AM): Good night, dearest.

novawarrior264 (1:34:28 AM): Good night, my love.

So, yeah. Quite, quite excited. And also, I'm re-reading The Shoebox Project after recc'ing it to one of my friends. Ya'll should go read it, its quite amazing.